Sunday is Mother’s Day. I miss my mom. But I especially miss all the things I didn’t hear her say.

In her 80s, my mother’s mind and body succumbed to aging. She developed dementia, she had frequent falls and she often needed a wheelchair. But her hearing remained acute. Mine did not.

After my father died, when Mom was 85, she wanted to stay in the house they’d lived in together. It was far away from any of her children, and she had 24-hour-a-day nurses’ aides. Despite this attention, she often fell or had other physical issues that would send her to the hospital, then into rehab to recover, then home again with an aide, only to fall or suffer heart problems or infections once again, and start the cycle over.

Eventually, against her wishes, my siblings and I decided she would be better in the long-term nursing care facility at the community where they lived. She ended up thriving there.

But while she was still living at home, my hearing was a significant obstacle. It was difficult for me to hear her on the phone — and frustrating for us both — so I visited as often as I could. Even when I visited her, though, her soft voice and increasing dementia made it hard for me to understand her. My hearing loss also created some potentially dangerous situations. If I had to call her doctor or even 911, I couldn’t hear their responses. I’d hand the phone to my mother to listen for me and hope she was correctly repeating whatever the doctor said. I didn’t know about captioned phones then, or I’d surely have ordered one. If Text 911 had existed, that would have removed another barrier to communication.

Once she was in the nursing facility, there were fewer crises. But as she became less clear mentally, and as her voice weakened, I not only couldn’t understand what she was saying, but I was never sure she was saying what I thought she was saying. It’s hard enough for a fully hearing person to converse with someone with dementia. Imagine what it’s like when you aren’t sure you’ve understood correctly.

My mother died in 2014. Every mother’s Day I think about all that I missed in those last years of her life. Despite hearing aids and a cochlear implant, and hearing-assistive devices galore, my hearing and her dementia still created an enormous gap. The only way across it was with smiles and hugs and just being there — for her and for me.

Most people’s hearing problems are not as severe as mine. But if you’re having trouble hearing an elderly parent with a whispery voice — or if the parent is having trouble hearing you — don’t let that happen. If you are not ready for hearing aids, buy yourself a handheld device such as a pocket talker.

But whatever solution you come up with, don’t let those words be lost forever.

(A version of this post was first published in 2015 in AARP online.)

Photo courtesy of Katherine Bouton

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Last week I went to a panel discussion organized by the New York Museum Access Consortium. There were four panelists representing different disabilities and a moderator from MAC. The audience was made up mostly of people from disability rights organizations and museum personnel.

The evening’s topic was “Mindful Communication.” Avoiding hurtful or offensive language when talking about disability isn’t as easy as it sounds. “People first” is a generally accepted standard. To use hearing loss as an example, a person is not “hearing impaired,” because that suggests that the way he or she hears defines who he or she is. We prefer “people with hearing loss.” (For more on parsing terms for hearing loss see my post “Deaf, Hard of Hearing, Hearing Impaired? Be Careful What You Call Us.”) It took me a long time to realize that “hearing impaired” is a distasteful term to many with hearing loss – and I have hearing loss! So I’m relatively easy on others who slip up on the politically correct terms.

After the panelists introduced themselves, with visual descriptions for the blind in the audience, the moderator led the discussion with a variety of questions. I can’t do justice to the full hour’s discussion but a couple of comments stuck with me.

The panelists were asked what kind of language they found offensive. I expected to hear them say that casual ignorant slurs were hurtful. Instead, the answers were much more complicated.

Ansel, who has visible disabilities and uses a wheelchair, said he dislikes it when someone trying to be kind says: “God bless you.” He doesn’t feel the need to be blessed, and finds it condescending. But he doesn’t get angry. “If it makes them feel good, it’s okay.”

Nefertiti, who is blind, dislikes being called “amazing.” When she was growing up, people were always saying how amazing she was. “I was such an amazing kid just for getting up in the morning! It gave me a little bit of an ego.” She prefers to think of herself as “just a human being doing what I do. It doesn’t mean I’m amazing just because I’m blind.” Of the term “disabled” she said cheerfully, “I feel pretty abled.”

In the question and answer period, one museum employee spoke about the difficulty of using correct and acceptable language in written literature like museum guides. “We’re working with a staff with a fear around language,” she said, to nods of agreement from others in the audience. Another of the panelists, Madison, suggested that staff take their lead from the community in question. Nefertiti similarly suggested listening to the person or group and then mirroring the language they use.

This brought the conversation back around to the panel’s topic: Mindful Listening. Mindful Listening is always important, as Nefertiti pointed out. If, for instance, a sighted person offers to help a blind person cross the street, and doesn’t listen to a polite “No thanks,” nobody wins: “The blind person is offended and the sighted person is baffled.”

Some of the more digressive responses were also insightful. One of the challenges Nefertiti faces as a blind woman was something I’d never considered. Being blind, she said, means that she misses the culture of body language. Someone will say “She’s a nice girl but….” Think of all the ways you could end that sentence without saying another word:  With a shrug (suggesting “… she’s not very effective at her job”), with a roll of the eyes (“…. the clothes she wears make her look like a slut”), with a shake of the head (“… not for me!”), with raised eyebrows accompanied by a shoulder hitch (“… who knows what she’ll get into next”). Etc.

A full transcript of the discussion can be found here. 

Coincidentally, this week Major League Baseball announced that it would discontinue use of the term “Disabled List” for players who were injured. The change came about after advocates for people with disabilities complained, according to the New York Times. The Times quoted Jay Ruderman, president of the Ruderman Family Foundation, which encourages greater inclusion of people with disabilities in society: “The disability community identifies with the term ‘disabled,’” he said “When it’s used incorrectly, when someone is injured, not disabled, that’s offensive.” He went on: “People with disabilities do not consider themselves injured….Someone who tears an A.C.L. is not permanently disabled.”

It’s true (usually) that they are not permanently disabled, but should they happen to use a wheelchair for a period of time, they are entitled to the same rights under the Americans with Disabilities Act as people with more permanent disabilities. Nobody ever said the ADA was restricted to those with permanent injuries. In any case, goodbye to the DL and welcome the “Injured.”

Most of my readers have hearing loss. I’d love to hear your comments about terms and comments that offend you.

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Whether or not you are open about your hearing loss, there often comes a point at which you just can’t try to listen anymore.

I’m very open about my hearing loss. At this point, in fact, my hearing loss practically defines me, since I write and speak about it. The other night at a dinner party in a restaurant, the woman sitting next to me said she’d heard I was some kind of disability guru. A slight distortion but I like it.

There were seven of us at dinner, the others were in couples, I was on my own and knew only the hosts. They had told me in advance who would be there, so I didn’t have to struggle with names. The specials were on a blackboard, so I knew what I was ordering. The restaurant was reasonably quiet. So far so good.

The woman on my right was a well-known feminist scholar and I was slightly intimidated. But she was funny and friendly and very interesting. She was on my good side so I heard her her well.

After a while it seemed only polite to turn to the people on our other sides. On my left, my bad ear, was a man who was also hard of hearing. His bad ear was facing my bad ear. By twisting and leaning in and trying not to fall into my dinner plate, I caught enough for a reasonably coherent discussion.

Towards the end of dinner, over dessert and coffee, the conversation got more general, and apparently more hilarious, as everyone was laughing. It’s fun to watch people laugh – at least for a while. As it got funnier and funnier. I got more and more tired and stressed.

Under other circumstances- – with closer friends, if I were not a guest – I might have excused myself. But I didn’t know these people well and everyone had been very generous in acknowledging my hearing loss and speaking clearly. Now they were just enjoying themselves, and it seemed wrong to interrupt and ask that I be included. In fact, at that point there was probably no way I could have been included as the restaurant had gotten busy and loud.

The alternative was to excuse myself and leave. But I knew that would break up the conversation and probably end the evening. So I didn’t. Instead I relied on that old standby – faking it. I think it was the right decision.

What would you have done?

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What’s an HOH? The acronym (pronounced ‘ho’) stands for Head of Household, House of Hades, Head Over Heels …. And Hard of Hearing.

This highly subjective list is for your favorite HOH, last definition. The books are some of my favorites, personal endorsements. The technology is randomly chosen. You may find a better or cheaper brand. Please share in the Comments section.

I’m not going to write about hearing aids, hearing assistive devices or PSAP’s (Personal Sound Amplification Products). Not that they aren’t great gifts: I know a man who gave his sister the hearing aids she couldn’t afford after he landed a new high-paying job.

Books

Here are some of my favorites, shamelessly starting with my own.

*Smart Hearing: Strategies, Skills and Resources for Living Better with Hearing Loss (2018). A primer for veterans of hearing loss as well as newbies – and for anyone who lives, loves or works with someone with hearing loss.

*Shouting Won’t Help (2013).  Yup, also by me. A memoir of losing my hearing and — for a while, my sanity — as I tried to adjust to my new self. I did eventually find my way to acceptance, and I share that journey.

*Gael Hannan’s funny and wise The Way I Hear It (2018) is, like my books, a combination of memoir and advice from someone who’s been there.

*Deaf Sentence, (2009). David Lodge’s classic and hilarious portrait of a clueless professor of linguistics coming to terms with aging via his hearing loss.

*El Deafo (2014). Cece Bell’s graphic novel/memoir about a young girl with a great big hearing aid is meant for kids, but this adult loved it.

[These links are to Amazon but you can buy any of them — in paperback, e-book and in some cases other formats – at B&N.com or by asking your local bookstore to order them.]

Household Technology

*A sunrise alarm clock. There are lots of versions of this clock, which allows you to wake up to simulated sunrise (or a classic alarm). Wirecutter recommends the Philips Wake-Up Light HF 3520.

*TV Ears, an alternative to turning the set up to a volume that your next-door neighbor can hear. Williams Sound and Amazon both offer a variety of brands.

*A wireless strobe-light door chime. One of the more frustrating things about hearing loss is not being able to hear the doorbell. There are lots of brands, prices, and places to buy them.

*An ASL wall clock. Learn how to sign the numbers as well as what time it is. Available at Café Press as well as other retailers.

Protect Your Hearing

*Musicians earplugs. These allow you to hear what you want to while dampening loud sounds. Available at a wide range of prices, for professional musicians and anyone who loves music. Even if you don’t think it’s loud, it is.

*Noise-canceling earmuffs. Buy the kind made for yard work. They’re much cheaper than the $300 Bose, which is also excellent. Wear them to the stadium and they’ll protect your hearing and keep your ears warm.

Personal amplifiers.

*Bose Hearphones. These are $499, but people who use them say they are worth the price. Bose recommends them for “enhancing conversation.” Available at Bose, Best Buy and many other retailers.

*A Pocketalker. A simple and low-cost device for one-on-one conversation with someone with hearing loss. PocketTalker is the Williams Sound brand. Others are available.

Do something good for your favorite HOH and for HOH’s everywhere.

*HLAA Membership. Give your loved one a membership in the Hearing Loss Association of America, or make a donation in their name. You’ll be helping support HLAA’s mission of “information, education, support, and advocacy,” and introducing them to a world of people with hearing loss. “Hearing Life” magazine is a bi-monthly bonus.

Readers, what are your suggestions for HOH gifts you’d like to give or get?

For more about hearing health, my book “Smart Hearing.” will tell you everything I know about hearing loss, hearing aids, and hearing health.

You can get it online at Amazon or Barnes & Noble, in paperback or ebook for Kindle or Nook. You can also ask your library or favorite independent bookstore to order it.